You'll always be remembered...

You can fly so high...
Keep your gaze upon the sky
I'll be praying every step along the way

Even though it breaks my heart
to know we'll be so far apart
I love you, too much to make you stay
Baby fly away~

I miss you Dexter...
i know u'll be up there looking at us and blessing us every second..
you are the most unique and special doggy i'd ever seen
no other one can replace you in my heart..
i'll remember every moment we had together...
your playful-ness, naughty-ness, cute-ness, and everything...i wont forget
it'll be kept and lock in my mind and my heart...
i believe...we'll meet again~someday....
I LOVE U ♥

Dexter enter hospital...I'm sick...

Dexter is diagnosed with liver problem...

when i saw the vet, he told me Dexter already turn yellow
i was so shock to hear dat..
cos, to my knowledge, human will turn yellow when the liver got problem but i hopefully dexter is not..
but the vet then told me dexter is liddat surely is because there's something to do with the liver...
blood test have to be done to check how damage is the liver...
if the liver is spoilt badly then the chances for him to survive is very low..
so i'm just keeping my finger crossed...

i don dare to look when the vet is extracting his blood sample
i feel so painful for dexter
for the moment, he has to stay there to be given drip for saline solution and antibiotics
i'm missing him so much now!!!
the blood test report will be done tis evening...i cant wait for it, but i'm scare to know the result cos i dono wat it will be...

i was trying so hard to prevent my tears to drop in the clinic
but once i step out from the clinic, cant stop crying
then, went eat with ma bf and sis [v went there together]
tears cant stop pouring from eyes..
hehe, so embarassing, so many ppl in the restaurant...

now i'm falling sick already...fatigue, headache, sorethroat
but i dont intend to defer ma 2mr's paper...
hopefully can pass..
i cant complete revising all de topics...
so...god bless me! and ma dexter!!
i only get to see him 2mr after exam...
miss him!!
Be strong Dexter!!

s2 said i'm treating dexter like ma own baby...hehe
hmmm...but after tis period we'd been together...
he already become part of ma family...
i cant afford to lose anyone of them...
exam, if failed, i can re-sit the paper..
but once Dexter gone, he wouldnt come back..
so i'll do wateva i can to keep him with me...

U can go through this Dexter~

today is the second day...

Dexter's condition don seems to have improvement...
his body just don accept food at all...
he don have the appetite to eat...just eat a lil oni, very lil
but he threw up all the things he ate...
for 2 days already, his stomach neva accept food at all...
how's he gonna get well liddat...
sumore 2 days d neva pee at all...
its so heartbreaking seeing him liddat...
everytime he vomit he seems so suffering...
can feel dat he's crying, cuz there's tears in his eyes...
i dono how to help him, cos the medication dont seems to have any effects...

ysterday nite, i don have the mood to study at all...
just sit besides him, putting him to sleep, and accompany him...
at the moment, my tears start rolling down my cheek and cant stop crying after dat...
this two days, he just hide himself at those corners around ma hse, which is rili unusual, because he neva been liddat...
i heard that the dog usually stay away from its owner because they know that they'll be 'leaving' soon and they dont wan the owner to see them 'leaving'
i fear that Dexter will be liddat...
am i just scaring myself?
i feel so so so sad...
my eyes red everytime i see him lying down there, looking at me, as if he's trying to tell me dat he's very painful...
its just like my heart is stabbed by knives..bleeding...

++Dexter...i know u're very strong and tough...
u must get well, i'll buy alot alot alot of snacks and foods for u okie?!
i love u++

Dexter is sick...

the whole day neva study..
don feel like studying ler...
but i'll try hard to make myself pass geh...

this morning wake up...give food to ma dog...but he dowan to eat..
usually when he sees me in the morning, sure follow me, play around with me
but today he looks so tired, no energy, just lie on de floor, reluctant to move...
and dowan to eat...
eat a lil bit oni...
vomit all out after that...
went to consult vet, but dono wats wrong v him oso..
just give him some medication see got improvements or not lo...
sigh...see him so cham ler...
dono wat to do...
whole day he just lying down and sleep oni...
vomit few times already...
hopefully he'll get well very soon..

♥love u dexter♥

Moody...

dono y...
after study in HELP...
sometimes i feel lonely...i dono y...i have bf, i have friends as well...but...
sometimes i just feel like goin back the period when i was in high school...
i miss the time i play around and laugh out loud with my friends...
is there a 'time machine' exist in this world? i really hope it does..
seldom get to meet the old friends
but so long neva see each other
wat i can tok to them when i meet them?
do v have any topics to talk n enjoy about??


hahha...when i feel moody i sure think of all dis...
stupid rite??

too stress of studying for exam perhaps...hehehe
so write stupid things here to release my tension =p

nowadays. i'm easily took over by my mood..
when i'm in bad mood, i don feel like doin anything
and i get angry easily toking to him
but, i thought its normal, for a bf to become a 'sandbag' for their girlfriends
agree with me?? haha
i know a lot of ppl around me thinks that i'm a 'bully' towards him
but...i'm physically bullying him, u all think i'm bad, but wat eyes see is not the truth sometimes..
he 'mentally' bully me dat time u all sure dono laa
hahhaha

++ i think i shud i go back to study d =p bubye~♥

EXAM!!!

study..study..exam..

sigh...thursday start my first paper...2 days left
but i havent complete studying even 1 subject...die..
y i so lazy wan...
everytime new semester begins sure tell myself must study harder...but, i dont seem able to do it..wakakaa
now burning midnite oil to study

goin penang after exam with friends, ma whole mind is just thinking bout holiday-ing v ma friends oni...
cant get into the mood to study..
strange...last time i'll feel scare to fail n study very hard when exam is near...
but now i feel nth...y ar? perhaps my college life is too relax d...

now is 1.30am
just giving myself a break oni, after study for few hrs...
ai...back to study again laa..ciaoz

♥ Stardust ♥

today went to watch 'Stardust' v ma baby in mv
quite nice show ah...

its a fantasy adventure movie---just like the chronicles of narnia
its about a guy who search for a fallen star in a magical world..then starts encounters alot obstacles trying to protect the 'star' (which actually appear to be a woman) from being captured by the witches

i feel the storyline is just normal...but overall, its worth watching because the animation, actions and the elements of comedy and romance made it a worth watching

i like the lead actress, CLAIRE DANES...she looks pretty in the show.

and ROBERT DE NIRO who play the role of 'captain shakespeare'...he's so funny!!

i neva read the novel b4, so i dunno whether the film is as good as the book...


when goin back, in the car park...
the walkway to the car is so slippery (dunno which stupid car have oil leakage)
and...i slip the i slide and in the end slammed on the ground! hahaha! wanted to laugh at myself loud! luckily no unknown ppl there, so not so embarassing..but..ma bf , his mom and sis and also the sis's fren is there -_-''
ma bebe laa!! walk next to me oso not alert wan, see i slip faster hold me ma, then i don need to fall on the ground like an elephant!!

quarreling...

start studying today...very enthusiastic!!
after few hrs of studying i went down the living hall to relax for awhile..
online surf net..
dats the moment start quarrelling v ma mom

my mom usually keep the drinking water in few big bottles for the family.
last nite, i took one of it (Bottle A) and pour half to ma private bottle (Bottle B)--->to drink laa of cos..
then i left the Bottle A in living hall
when she saw the Bottle A, without asking, straight away scold me

"You drink straight from the bottle??!! how others goin to drink liddat??!! drink ur slyver ar??!!"

"sorry, i left it here wan. but i didnt drink it laa. i pour it out to ma own bottle wan.."

"how can u do like dis harh??! i rili don und u guys laa. cant just pour out to drink??!"

"i say i din drink from the bottle laa...i use ma own bottle wan"

then she still keep say the same thing.. this auntie dunno come from which planet -_-''

then i rili pissed d and raised ma voice---

"i said i didnt means didnt!!! if u don bliff me just pour away all the water laa!!"

" of cos its easy 4 u to say laa, u're not the one who boil the water wat!"

i begin to feel lazy to tok to her d

spoilt my mood to study...

then she started complaining bout other stuffs...
she just wan to cari gaduh oni
kept on ask me to give my puppy away to other ppl
wats wrong v her??
i just keep silent...

sigh~~

lazy...

today wake up early...
feel so tired..tot wanto continue sleeping but cant get into sleep...
so play around v ma doggy...

exam is just around the corner, but cant get into the mood to study
perhaps i relax too much d, not even scare of failing the exam...
no matter wat i'll still study ler tho feel so so lazy, hopefully can pass ler...cos skip classes too much d

my tummy is like hamburger now---> got few layers..hahaha
i wanto lose weight d...i said it so alot of times d...but...i just cant keep ma eyes of the food!
lazy to exercise...aiyaya
start from today...i onli eat one meal a day!! i promise myself!!! hopefully i can do it ler -_-''

back into blogging

it's been a long long while i din update ma blog...
hehehe
reason??
hmmm...lazy~~ hahaha

ai..mood not so good this few days...
cuz..
pimples breaking out from ma face...not a lot la, but...not lil oso...aiya, which gal don care bout their appearance rite..
moreover 2ml goin ma baby's cousin wedding dinner, all his relatives will b there!! gosh!! wat can i do to look better??! d pimples are so stubborn, been apllying a lot pimples cream, but...sigh~ pls go away~~~ -_-''

week ago, my puppy was having skin problem, his fur started falling like mad, almost bald!!! not whole body la hahaha, at the chest part ler...was so worry bout him, spent me rm100++ for consultation!! but luckily its condition has improved, fur starting to grow back...hehhe, happy~!!

ma puppy stop making noise during night time...at last i can get good sleep already~~only during thunder n lightning. i've been training him d past few weeks...now he learnt to shake hand, sit and call me(bark) when i tell him to do so...happy!! but...ma command is less efficient if there's no food for him haha!